Hi blogettes

Only a short one today, I had all these things planned and then read over all our blogs, and then thought shall I write a blog or start "Depressed R Us" (I'm not an expert but I can say that I am officially depressed - I said depressed not officially mad - or so the Dr. says!! and yes I know there are many who would queue up to dispute that fact, me on occasions being one of them!)

Seriously though having as I said re-read all our blogs almost all of us sound as if we are sitting under some huge great cloud and having it p*** down all over us!! and having re-read that yes I can just see you nodding that it is.

Now remember I am not the writer, but I thought one of us has got to write something cheery or funny - and as I said not being the writer - I've got stuck here!!!! I did think of just writing a line of ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha and again ha ha - but then I thought that was silly!

So wherever you are and whatever space you are in I hope it is not a black hole but when you read this, you at least smile (even if it is a grimmance or groan) and remember smiling is good for keeping wrinkles away (probably why I look like a prune after the last few months!)and if nothing else blogettes you may delay the wrinkles for a nano second!

Sleep tight and wherever your space is I hope it is a happy one!!

nite nite

sorry can't go without a moan - there are even more balls on the TV now - it's bloody wimbledon (so that's summer over then, get your brollies out) - I don't mind tennis once every donkey foaling season, but I am on total overload with the footy too!

I'll stop now as I am in danger of seriously needing chocolate!

It's been one of those weeks!!

Hi blogies and blogettes,

Had one of those absolutely cr*p weeks and I thought if I put in down in print, I would have gone on to write something along the length of War and Peace - I kid you not it's been ******** and to top it all I heard that a dear old friend's daughter lost her battle with cancer - her daughter was only a couple of years older than me and leaves children who are just starting to bloom into adulthood and are at a time when they needed their mum most.

My friend just turned 80 and is active running a welfare section, she is always caring and there for others especially at times like these when she usually sends a beautiful poem to the person she is helping. Thinking of her and her loss makes me feel selfish in feeling bad about what's been happening in my space and realise we always have to count our blessings and cherish each day.

Whenever I was down she would remind me of a poem she wrote :

Tomorrow will be yesterday
Is what I always say.
Tomorrow will be yesterday
And you will have your day.

The future may look bleak it's true
But do not worry Dear
For God will take good care of you
If all my prayers He'll hear.

You've weathered many other storms
And come through them to see
The sunshine on the other side
And this will surely be.

So try to take life as it comes
And smile when this you see.
And don't forget that come what may
All will be history.
(Rita S)


My friend lost dozens of her family in death camps in the holocaust and now she has had to face this sorrow, all I can do is try to be there for her as she has been there for me and many others.

If my prayers are heard God will in deed take care of her in her time of need.

I hope she does not mind my putting her poem out here but the words can apply to many of us at sometime in our lives, as I read over her words again I will try to keep looking for the sunshine and smile when this period in our lives is history!!

Nite Nite blogies and blogettes
Sleep tight!! & God Bless R

Why has the world been ruled by a round ball (I said singular not plural)

Hi blogies and blogettes

Had a stressed out day and I'm knackered so this is going to be a brief destresing moan.

Football - I can understand that it has a lot of followers but WHY does it have to be on every channel I turn onto - can't they put the lot on one channel and run it or even designate two channels for the world cup - but why is it on two channels at the same time and where have my destressing car crash tv soaps etc gone.

NOT EVERYONE likes football, I don't care if they say it's every 4 years - this one may be but then it will be something else like european competitions or qualifiers - hello telly people out there not everyone is ruled by balls!!

Give us a break I seriously need my downtime to chill and watch rubbish that flows over me not see a group of multi coloured shirts with inane commentators watching a round ball being chased about - and for the money they are paid to do it you'd think that as all they have to do it get it in the net a couple of time in 90 minutes they could do that, the way most of it's played you wouldn't need sleeping pills just watch that.

Here endeth the moan - as I'm boring myself with it now!! zzzzzzz

Hope your space wherever it is, is a peaceful one!

Ah found my way in!- haven't worked out where the headings are yet!!

Hello fellow blogies and blogetts, hopefully I will get to finish this without being interrupted.

I had decided to go on a rant about bullying, but now that is for another day when I am in need of some therapy! Instead a fellow blogetts page inspired my thinking today - so here goes

I suppose in life we have many definitions, I defined myself in my title or did I? Yes there are many days (which probably add up to years) when I wake up and think beam me up Scotty into someone else, I don't like the me I am and the life I am living,(and some bastard keeps winning the lottery jackpot that is meant for me!!) but then again I think about my life and whatever has happened to me, I truly believe happens for a reason - although one day I wish someone would bloody well tell me why and for what! But I suppose I will have to wait until I reach the pearly gates to find out - not that I am assuming I will be invited in - I think the scales could tip either way, but as I am not finished living yet we will have to see!

I think everything that happens to us good, bad or indifferent or the people we meet, love and lose happens for a reason. The best way I can think of describing it is as if we are a drop of water that makes a puddle, with each drop it grows until it is a river or sea, we are all part of something and serve a purpose even as I said above we haven't got a clue what that might be.

If you have children, as much as you love them you would have to be a saint not to think at sometimes "let me out" I am a person in here, I want my life back I need to live it, I have things to do, places to see, things to experience!

In my head I am still about 24 and even catch myself glancing at clothes which I would have worn then but would look totally ridiculous now on a middle aged mum (it would be sooo totally mutton dressed as lamb!), I pass mirrors and the thought runs through my head "where have I gone, where is the me inside, whose taken over my body and replaced it with that", and then a little voice at the back of my mind says "when the children are all grown up I will have time to be me."

The flip side to that, is I have children from 12 to 25, three are already adults and now when I spend time with my kids or go on holiday I realise how little a time we really have with them, we are always busy or working and their lives are racing on, soon my last two babies will be men and won't need me, I wonder what will fill the void that for all my wantings to be "me" I now realise will be there.

Although I have the hankering to be the me I think I am, I realise that the children and all my experiences are what makes "me" whether or not I like "me" all the time is another thing and everything I do takes me on another step of my journey of life.

To my fellow blogett, don't give up that one day you will become the you, you want to be - as I said you have a special talent with your writing and no doubt being a great mum - this may sound a little mad but I think of you more like a bulb (no not an electric one!). With the circle of life a bulb lays in the ground, we can't see it as sometimes it is dormant especially buried right down in the dark days of winter, but things still happen to it and around it which we may not realise or easily see, but these make it grow till eventually it bursts forth out the ground and becomes a beautiful flower, you are that flower just keep the strength that out of the dark always comes the light, just as day follows night and what is now, is for a reason, but it will bit by bit move you forward to make you become the person you want to be. (In my case and with my luck it will probably be when I am totally wrinkly, grey and toothless - but that's my vanity going into overdriven.

Going back to subject of children (and partners) - when we have them as we all know we do have to compromise and makes sacrifices and sometimes lose sight of the me inside or life we want have, but as much as we do this it is weighed against how much they bring to our lives and enrich them (on second thoughts I'll leave the hubby/partner equasion out of this - that is too long and for another day and the jury is still out on where they come in the scheme of things!)- who knows which one of us has given birth to the next Einstein, Alexander Flemming, Marie Curie, Florence Nightingale, Alexander Graham Bell, Edison (or god forbid a Hitler). One of our descendants may be the one to cure Cancer or discover how to save the planet!!

See as we are, as I think droplets, who knows where the ripples will end. Well I know where this is ending because I am lapsing into a total ramble!! and I have an offspring to pick up - who is off on a school trip in the morning which means we have to leave the house at 5 a.m. aaaargh!!!

Finally for all my rambin' on I know deepdown that in the scheme of things and whatever life chucks at me (and it hasn't been doing a bad job so far)I am lucky I have a family that loves me and we are all healthy and I have some wonderful friends who I wouldn't swap for anything!

Keep well and hope your space wherever it is, is a happy peaceful one.

Till the next time I get some peace and quiet to write and ramble.

Caio Blogies and Blogettes.

PS When you read this if you come across any peculiar words I accidentally hit the replace button upteen times instead of the ignore button and I can't see them for looking!!

Well this is it I'm off, where I'm not too sure - but who is? After following the lead of an old and very good friend, I'm going to put down what's happening in my space, which at the current time is very hectic and confused, so if I ramble all over the place try to bear with me!

My title LookIn2Find, well I thought in one way or another we all are looking for something, we may not know what or recognise it when we find it, or we find it and hadn't realised we were looking, but everyone at sometime is doing one or the other! Where it takes us who knows, but that's part of life isn't it? Who really knows what is what, we may think we do, but there is always that part which is the unknown!

What am I looking for? I wish I knew, it would make it a lot easier, it is cliched to say peace, happiness, good health, wealth - but I never know what part of the journey of life I'm on, Sometimes I think I do only to have the rug pulled out from under me or something thrown in and then I'm off on another tangent - but then straight lines would make life boring wouldn't it.

It's almost midnight and I think I have rambled enough for my first blog - sleep well and wake in peace wherever you are and lastly thanks to a special friend - you know who you are for getting me into this, but remember folks I am not a writer - just me!

Nite Nite